81 Days Before

"I used to waste my time dreaming of being alive - now I only waste it dreaming of you."
- Fall Out Boy, Of All The Gin Joints In All The World

Well, my recent Katimavik dreams were not accurate at all. I am a member of group 22180 in the Second Language and Cultural Identity program, beginning my experience on January 4th in Saguenay, Quebec, and then on March 28 I will travel to Medicine Hat, Alberta, where I will stay until June 20.

I suppose I expected to have a lot to say about this which is why I opened a new entry instead of finding a way to tie this in to my last post. But I feel a little sick to my stomach (nothing compared to last night... I seem to have a 24 hour bug or something... I don't want to call "food poisoning" like my dad suggested because I didn't start feeling ill until after eating at Taco Bell and I don't believe for one minute that something I ate at work would make me sick) so I'm not going to say much about it yet because I just want to think.

Last night when I was feeling very sick, I told Wrecking Ball that maybe me being over wasn't such a good idea, especially since I already felt awful from having a very bad day. He hugged me and said, "I love you, feeling gross or having a bad day," and that is definitely on the list of Sweetest Things Anyone Has Ever Said To Me. We haven't spoke yet about how he feels about me going away for so long. Every time I bring it up I say "I'm worried about this" and "I'm nervous about that" but I haven't asked him yet what this is for him, and I didn't even realise it until I told Jewel about my placements and she asked, "was Wrecking Ball sad to hear that?" Now I feel rather selfish. Also, I'd like to think about Wrecking Ball more than I'd like to think about Katimavik right now. Linking those thoughts reminds me I need to change my phone plan. Koodo now offers unlimited Canada-wide long distance in all basic plans, so instead of my phone bill increasing it's actually going to drop (because I will keep my same price plan but I will need to get rid of my value pack).